North Star Zenergy | Lifestyle, Confidence & Business Coaching

I used to be skinny, insecure, doubtful, and a hopeless romantic.

I grew up with a typical black sheep story — constantly bullied and picked on, which led to feelings of neglect from my family, friends, and acquaintances. I was left feeling excluded, lonely, depressed, unworthy, emotionally crushed, and every other negative emotion you could name. It may sound dramatic, but I was sensitive, constantly in my head, and too young to take it any other way.

I quickly learned I was the type of person to wear my emotions on my sleeve. I never let myself see that as a weakness. After all, it was just me, myself, and my emotions. I started to use them as a strength.

I grew up surrounded by drugs and alcohol. The crazy part is that hard drugs came into my life before alcohol. I started snorting cocaine and popping ecstasy at 12. Selling drugs at 14. Being in that world became my only outlet.

Looking back, it's pretty insane that I'm actually here today — living, breathing, healthy, and happy. I should be in prison or dead. And I'm so grateful I'm not.

I'm a firm believer that everything in life happens for a reason. Everything that happens is supposed to happen, exactly the way it happened. Maybe read that again.

Even though life has a course for us, we are still in control of how we respond.

I was 16 when I saw Steve Cook on the cover of Muscle and Fitness Magazine. Like most people, my first instinct to fix my insecurity was to get in shape. I dreamt of becoming a fitness model and landing a magazine cover.

This was 2011. I started training five days a week — but I still had all the old habits. For five years, I managed to get blacked out drunk every weekend, attend raves, smoke cigarettes, vape, and binge fast food all day, every day. I was living the exact opposite of a healthy and confident life. I wasn't building confidence the right way.

Then in 2016, I got my heart broken. I went completely sober for four months and channeled everything into my physical health. I got absolutely shredded — washboard abs, certified personal trainer, bodybuilding, modeling. My confidence took a major leap. Life was good, but something was still missing.

I had all the physical confidence in the world and couldn't get a date to save my life. I was building on the outside, but I didn't have true self-confidence. We often confuse self-esteem with self-confidence. Self-esteem is how much you value yourself. Self-confidence is how much you value your abilities and skills. I had the second without the first.

I didn't figure out that confidence comes from within until I took myself out of Westminster, Colorado entirely. I knew shifting my environment would be transformative — I didn't know it would make me exactly who I was always meant to be.

When everything is new, it triggers new thoughts. New thoughts lead to new feelings. New feelings lead to new actions. New actions produce new results. You're taken outside your comfort zone 24/7. That's what happened the first year I lived in Las Vegas. This is where my true confidence journey began to skyrocket.

I landed one of the best jobs I'd ever had — and quickly worked my way into a management position. The downside? The environment was toxic. I was working six days a week, drinking heavily almost every day, and my mental health dropped fast. Financially I was doing better than ever. The quality of my life told a different story.

In 2021, I made the conscious decision to leave. I took three months off to completely work on myself. The results were phenomenal — so phenomenal that I became a life coach. Everything I had lived through in the previous 11 years felt too expansive, too life-changing to keep to myself. I wake up feeling so amazing every day. How could I not want everyone around me to feel the same?

Here's what I didn't see coming: helping people transform their lives would lead me straight back to my biggest dream.

Something shifts when you spend years guiding others through fear, through the unknown, through the version of themselves they've been too scared to become. You stop being able to ignore the parts of yourself you haven't fully bet on yet. For me, that was music.

In 2025, I launched Surivan Records and stepped fully into my identity as Surivan — artist, DJ, and producer. My debut album, I Am Surivan, is a direct extension of everything North Star Zenergy is built on: facing the void, trusting the process, and showing up as your most authentic self even when the outcome isn't guaranteed.

I want to be the biggest DJ in the world. I'm putting that here, plainly, because that's what this whole journey taught me — you don't whisper your biggest dreams. You say them out loud and you build toward them every single day.

The coaching work, the music, the label — it's all the same mission. Help people feel something. Help them wake up.

I'm here to help you tap into the highest, most confident version of yourself.

I do this through emotional awareness, emotional intelligence, and mindful living.

I help you reach the lifestyle you've always dreamt of.